Unapologetic

I can't seem to get out of this rut.
The more I think the more complicated it becomes.
I wish someday I could escape this prison I'm trapped in.
It leaves me restless and emotionless eternally.
Constricting my body I can't seem to change all that must be good.
I don't see the point anymore.
People always seem to cheer me up, but nowadays I'm more alone than ever.
I will reconnect soon and maybe this will change.
However for now nothing can help through this problem.
The problem is the hole in my soul never really fixed.
You can't fix it with duct tape, nor with super glue.
Covering it up with tattoos and clothing does nothing either.
I'm so lost and seem to have wandered far from the path I chose before.
Will I continue existing as I am or might I change exponentially in some way.
I hope the latter for soon I will fade.
Soon I will disappear forever.
Soon I will no longer continue through this forest of my mind.
I hack down the trees only to find new ones and also new thoughts.
I hope to settle these problems eventually.
Maybe I will find myself.
I help others, but rarely myself.
This seems to be my weakness.
Some will eventually abuse it and my existence will fade.
I will become UNAPOLOGETIC and never seen or heard from again.